Friday, March 28, 2008

When it rains, it pours

how come on earth that this statement be so true??? its like when you are feeling really bad already, expect that worse is gonna come.

so i already feel wretchedly sick today, my throat itches like hell and i had a slight headache but i gotta go to work because my manager took her off today and nobody's gonna stay in the office but me. then suddenly accounting just called about a "nightmare" that happned last january, with regards to an unopened file with a demurrage of $4k. i know that was my fault, i admit that already, but it kept on coming back like a ghost that haunted me forever.

i am just ranting my heart out here just to keep me sane in my insane mood right now.

Monday, March 24, 2008

ACCEPTANCE (a repost from my old friendster blog)

ACCEPTANCE

It had been thirteen years

that i've been struggling from my doubts and fears

But I've lived. All years through.

Yet it's still not the same without YOU.

I'd say I'd PRETEND to survive

in a way it kept me hanging on

But I can't do this all my life

I know I had to be strong.

Acceptance is a lethal word

It cuts deeply in my veins

Give me courage Dear Lord

The truth always lies in pain..

Pretension is fleeting

Acceptance is a must

You are etched in my heart forever

But for now, I am still learning to adjust.

~in loving memory of my father, Ruben Camargo (March 23, 1995).

Tay,

it's been thirteen years since you've left us, but it felt as if it was just yesterday. Time really flies so fast. At least this year Nanay and I were able to visit you. We missed you very much you know. I missed you. I might not able to show it but i missed having you around. And i missed Kaelo too. and Tata and Inang. and KaTotok and KaAto.. i wish you guys were still here.. but that would be very selfish of me to ask, i know you guys are in a better place now. No regrets. No worries. No problems.

And just like what i told you in my letter last year, i am still struggling not only to become a better daughter to you and Nanay but more of becoming a better PERSON to everybody. I might not be perfect but i could say that i am a better person now than yesterday. Don't worry, 'tay, i will still try to be an even better person so you will be proud of me.

Your blacksheep (who else would be??),

MA. THERESA A. CAMARGO

Monday, March 10, 2008

my weaknesses(s)..

Everyone has their own weaknesses or those things that makes you wanna say "..ooohh, I wanna get that one!". Even the famous first Lady Ms Imelda Marcos is still famous for her collection of Shoes. Most girls adore lots of bags. Some are miniature dolls or Barbies, or even Angel Figurines. Even Candles. To most Men, miniature Harleys might meant their whole lives. It is quite a fact that we love collecting stuffs - from Stamps to Boyfriends (i'm joking but its true!)To the point that you do not care anymore if its good or bad for you. and mine would be the following:

1. STATIONERIES. there was a point in my life where i go gaga over these scented papers,They also vary from their length and sizes, some are big and some are small. Believe me, I got Hello Kitty's to Personalized Ones. I totally loooove them to a fault. I remember i even have a bag full of stationeries in which i hide from everybody at the house, because they will definitely get mad at me. I started collecting these heavenly creatures when i was in Fourth Grade. I just stopped collecting stationeries when i found my other fetish. (big grin.)

2. POCKETBOOKS. Actually, i started collecting books just as the same age as i collected stationeries. i was in sixth grade when my cousin introduced me to the world of reading. I still remember as if that was yesterday, when my aunt from N.Y. sent a "balikbayan package" to us full of "BABYSITTER'S CLUB Series by Ann M. Martin. From then on I was hooked. Then came the "SWEET VALLEY TWINS, which became SWEET VALLEY HIGH until SWEET VALLEY UNIVERSITY. All from Francine Pascal. My classmates and I were reading them from series to series, I still remember i usually wrote all the titles of the books that i have and exchange them with my classmates, and don't forget the usual Sweet Dreams. I also totally got hooked with Harlequin Romances and Silhuette Romances, among my favorites are Amanda Browning, Lynne Graham and Carole Mortimer. Then one of my classmates introduced me to the world of Tagalog romance. I usually read novels from Helen Meriz, Maia Jose, Jo-An Solis, Arielle and Luisa Villafuerte. Then one day i read a novel from Ms Martha Cecilia, it was entitled "Rose Tattoo", which is a part of her infamous Kristine Series. I got hooked from then on. Believe me, there was a part in my life in which i was walking along Recto going crazy looking for old copies of Ms Martha Cecilia. and for me, they are priceless. They are my most coveted possession ever. and i am so proud that i have the complete lists of all her works. and i wouldn't trade my collections for anything in the world!! But of course i also read other titles but none of them would ever compare to MC novels.

3. POEMS. Yes, yes, yes. I collected poems. Not just poems written by anybody but mostly written by myself. Those were the days when i was so sad and depressed that i did not know what to do. But instead of crying or doing something bad to myself, i just let my imagination flow. Then bingo. i could create poems, they were not that great but at least they rhyme. Most of the time. Gonna grab some lime. But i don't even got a dime. (lol)

4. PERFUMES. I can say that these are my most expensive fetish ever. but i can say that among all my stuff, these are the ones that really digs me. I mean, they can be something that really can fill the "space" or "emptiness" inside. they can cheer me up just by looking at them. and that saves me from total insanity. (if i am still sane). And i totall love my collections to a fault..

Here are some of the pics of my collection.

And by the way, i just bought another 2 bottles last Sat, Island FIJI by Michael Kors and DIAMONDS by Emporio Armani. It's Beyonce's fault that i bought the latter.

Monday, March 03, 2008

POST VALENTINE GIFT

this is quite a bit late for blogging but i just couldn't help it. Yes, i got a post Valentine gift from my cousin, its Insolence by Guerlain. An addition again to my fragrance collection. thanks cuz!